It was an all-coins day.

Realised that I'ad been going out with many of my Secondary school friends nowadays, and just yesterday, I went out with my 4 zhss-cum-nyjc guzheng mates for the very 1st time after knowing each other for like what, 5 years? A bit hard to believe, but it's true. No matter the frequency of our trips out together, I can say that our tacit understanding is rather applaudable. It must be that trust and understanding that built up in these 5 years during all our performances and crapping sessions when we used to meet up for guzheng.

For this, I felt really thankful and contented, to know that friends do not have to always come from the same clique of people you see everyday, but also they can include your fellow fighters who are always beside you when you are out there facing a challenge, be it a competition or a true challenge in life. Although all 4 of us have our own set of cliques and come from different classes in the jc (I was in the same class as shuhui in upper sec, weiyu was in the class next to us and shuting 2 classes and a walkway away from mine in the sec sch days), we still kind of share the same memories and experiences, and also the feelings towards certain people and their absurd actions which may not be noticed by some other passer-by.

I feel really grateful!

So, we have the trip out to suntec yesterday to spend time together, all 4 of us, me, shuting, shuhui and weiyu.

My family potrait! Hahax~

It was one of the those times when I won't feel utterly pissed off when my friends tend to walk very very VERY slowly from one destination to the other. In fact, I rather enjoyed the process of just walking around and fooling around with them right from the mrt station to suntec. We hopped into a few shops to examine the ridiculous prices of stuff which can be brought from the shop opposite my house at a price of 3 for 10 dollars and came out just to hop into yet another shop.

Hmm, this is so different from some other groups. If they don't like the shop, they would just walk out of it when you are still looking around the shop interestingly.

That's the difference.

And guess what? We went into Toys'r'us and tried to exit using the entrance and had the way of the exit pointed
to us by 2 very bored-looking cashiers wearing santa's furry red-and-white hats. Shuhui went 'temporary' out of her mind and tried persuading us to share a bottle of baby-food with her. We fooled around especially at the magic section where I started the fun by saying "Lumos" with a fake wand in my hand and Shuting followed by saying an unforgivable curse (the one that starts with 'a') shot at weiyu. Then we all went into a frenzy of hugging and throwing around furry animals lookalikes at the soft toys section. Whoa, v expensive lo... so must hug for a longer time since I can't buy them. and there's a monkey soft-toy with damn long arms and my dear shuting and shuhui kept trying to throw its long arms around my neck and weiyu's too. For god's sake, I know I look terribly like a tree but you don't have to remind me of that, my dear girls.

And now, I will explain the part about yeaterday being the all-coins day.

First, we each forked out 2 1-dollar coins for the toy capsule machine. After much praying and shaking of the machine, we finally got capsules of different colours. I got a blue one, shuting got a light-beigeone, shuhui got a green one and weiyu got a yellow one.

Hahax~ We ended up at a circular colourful bench outside a children merchanise store and beside a thomas-the-train-merry-go-round which just did not know how to shut up (''...and UP we go!"). There
were many people who walked past us when we were assembling the small little things of the capsules. There
were a couple of little siblings who stopped to look, 3 grown-up women, a lady who works at a nearby shop and a pair of kids aged around 12-13 years old who walked past and burst out laughing at our "childishness" when they entered the children merchanise shop. Diao:: Why act mature when you are not? And hello, aren't you people shopping for a teeny-weeny pink flurry cute skirt in a CHILDREN'S MERCHANISE STORE??!

That's just ironic.

Then we shopped around in cute little shops and I especially remembered a toy-shop which has the gigantic figure of huifang(zhss de qi jie mei)-cum-edwin(zhss de bro4)-cum-yanxing(nyjc de su ah pek)'s favourite catoon character.

I can't say for sure for edwin though, he seems equally fond of sponge bob square pants.

Finally we are all hungry. I got a packet of roasted chicken rice, shuting got a packet of nasi lemak with a fish she didn't know how to eat, shuhui and weiyu got pineapple rice cuz it's vegetarian and it was thought that it wouldn't hurt their mouth ulcers. They were obviously very wrong. And we went back to the colourful bench to eat there. kind of attached to that place liao. Hahax~

Then we saw many cutie-pies (little children) going up the thomas-the-train-merry-go-round. So cute! And their parents are cute too... hahax! We saw 3 children who totally did not know each other at all going on the 3 seats of the merry-go-round and departing as friends after the ride. And there was a dad with a very spiky hairstyle with her young daughter who has a weird hairstyle as weird as his. And there was another dad who kept carrying her dughter using ONE hand like she was some super-girl. Reminds me of my own dad throwing me around in the air when I was young. To all parents, children are NOT toys, thank you.

And off to the arcade we go! All I could see was me and shuting playing. Shuhui and weiyu were not very interested. And yes, this is another part of the all-coins day. We have to go change for coins for the machines mah~ we played the bishi-bashi (playing instructions explained in cantonese), the music machine I played last year with bro4 sis3 after gab's bdae celebration, and the drum thingy. THE MACHINE GOT MAYDAY'S SONG!!! The song is kaled "ah mu si zhuang" which is "Armstrong" if you want it translated. V v v NICE lo!

We planned to go esplanade de, but in the end it rained, so we went to plaza singapura to take neoprints. It's all-coins day action number 3! We changed 20 dollars for 20 1-dollar coins lo, and took it twice. Cuz the effect v lousy mah, not very experienced with the machine. But had quite a fun time decirating and posing weird weird poses~ Hahaz~

Now, I am BROKE after getting my pocket money just 2 days before.

But I AM VERY HAPPY!!! (Although we seemed to be playing with machines for the whole day.)

LOVE YA, BABES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


4:20 AM



I am currently editing my draft for the LEP project and I came across many funny forums discussing on our project topic, making me laugh through the whole research process. Well, at least it was not as boring as I thought (anyway, the topic is on the 4 Most Beautiful Women of the Ancient Times in China). In fact, I heard that there was another group eyeing our topic, but too bad, we got it first! ::sense of satisfaction::

Got loads of homework for the holiday. Especially me, cuz i have to do extra papers on maths. Yep, my maths sux 4eva. Maths is so NOT for me. I prefer geography and biology!!! But there's no such combination for me to take. Or else... I wouldn't be here saying all these.

Isn't it better to accept the reality and work hard to adapt than to grumble of what couldn't be changed anymore?

Yes. I will surpass the few who always get the attention of the teachers and score damn well right from the start of next year! I want. I can. I WILL!

But there's one thing. Plans can't work for me. No use planning also... I must start preparing for A'levels! And not say say only...hahax~

Watched Pokemon (advanced) just now when I was eating my breakfast (salmon spread on bread) and they were saying something about time. " I guess, time is the world's best treasure." That's by Ash. Hmm, as seen from the line, we can deduce that cartoons are not only for kids. Kids wouldn't have thought much about the line anyway... They would probably think that time passes fast when they have to stop playing and go home for dinner. But to us, the da jie jie and da ge ge, hmm, time really is the most valuable treasure. As we grow up, time will stop being so generous and kind to us. They will go faster and faster and if we can't take it, we will spin out of control. If we can take the speed, congrats--we are on to the next stage where time goes even faster at a much scarier speed.

Hmm, starting to find that only the songs I heard during primary 6 and secondary school are the best musical creations. Cham!!!! I am getting OLD.

Nvm. Huai jiu is always a good thing. Shows that we FEEL and know how to treasure what we have and what we USED to have.

Anyway, fairprice potato chips are better than that of the cold storage. The sour cream and onion flavour is NICE!!!

I predict that there will be a new pimple on my face tmr.

I miss my tarot cards! But I 'll have to wait till I have finished all the homework before I can lay my hands on them.

Stupid me! I haven't prepare the Xmas presents yet! And I am currently BROKE.

Should I go work again? No la. A levels more impt. But Xmas lei?
T_T;;

And I haven't contact my old primary frens yet. Cuz i moved le mah, what if they send the xmas cards to the wrong address? Plus I always waited till the last minute b4 I send the cards. So, they will probably send me the cards first. SIGHZZZZ~

I miss the old days, regardless of all the arguments we had... Cuz the conflicts were most prob caused my me... hahax~ Sometimes I am "overly-sensitive" as quoted by some of my friends. But really, I am so experienced in lying (oy, I changed alot for the better le hor) that I can see right through most of the people who are lying, whether to me or to my friends. I will get really pissed off when one tries to take advantage of me or my friends and totally fan lian straight away. Hmm, what's that term... ya, "X-ray vision". I took the test some years ago at emode.com (currently tickle.com) and got this result as my supernatural power. But... hahax~ I think itx abit kua, I can't possibly see everyone naked under their clothes mah. Or even see their intestines and bones etc. How gross. But I can sense their motives and stuff through their speech and actions ba... And tada, I became rather unpopular. But things are alot better now. Given that I stop revealing the hidden truth in people when they try to lie and cheat and take advantage of innocent friends who put their total trust in them. That's the most despicable.

K, what the hell am I toking abt.

Watever watever.

Anyway, I am now burdened with so many people's secrets that I can't breathe properly liao. I counsel people, but I can't counsel myself. How ironic.

Lame.

Sianzz.

5:05 AM



As promised, I shall blog about my day out at Shuting laopo house yesterday.

The weather was damn hot and still brooding about my stomache-ache that came by from time to time, I strolled out of the AVA room rather dejectedly. I asked Shuhui whether she wanted to go to Shuting's house together with me after the long Chinese class and she rejected the offer with the reason being that she needed to go to the library to return the books due on that day.

Here, I lost a source of companionship. And when I walked out of the school gate, I was still quite irritated by the fact that both my friends had pangseh-ed me during peer-marking during the Chinese class. This is not the 1st time la. I remembered being hauled onto stage during PE lesson to dance that stupid dance with 2 teachers and some strange guy who couldn't even get the moves right and I was gana giggled at (guys giggle??) just because I had no partner.

That's past tense. And it has nothing to do with the trip to Tingting's house. It's just me being a demanding friend again. I hate being rejected and ignored. Please, I live because I need to be accepted and welcomed... but really, maybe I am abit too extreme sometimes... So...

Whatever.

So, I am on the trip to laopo's house on bus 156. I called TWICE and sms-ed her TWICE on the bus before she finally realised that her phone screen was flashing, and that was when she saw it in the mirror of a J8 toilet. Yes, she turned off the vibration and set her phone to silent mode at the same time. If not for the mirror... my saviour!

Yeah, then she couldn't find me when she finally discovered that I am there already. I told her that I am beside 7 eleven, near the bus-stop and I think she was kind of confused and went the wrong way instead.

It was only after a whole load of misunderstandings before we met. And right after that, we walked straight into the MRT station with no particular reason until we stopped near the barricade and realised that we were out of our minds... T_T;; It was something like both of us suddenly waking up from our day-dream together before the barricade in the MRT station and came back to reality lo... What were we thinking about??!!

Never mind, I think we are both mesmerized by each other... HAHAHAHAHA~

K, then we are off to her house on her mother's car! You must be asking why are we not taking a bus... That's because our very BLUR shuting had 4gotten ALL about her KEYS~ and thus we have to rely on her mother who was shopping with her before shuting left her in the J8 toilet to come look 4 me.

TADA! Then we arrived at her block. And we were warmly welcomed by a very "handsome" cockroach who just happened to pass by us... #_# But shuting's mother did not seem to care at all~ WHOA!!! Wei da! Must be because she protects her children from cockroaches till the point when she can find nothing scary in them liao!

Hahahahahaha...

Shuting lives on a v high floor... Even higher than my floor 16... Abit scary when you were to look down from her balcony... But if you just look out straight from the window, you will see a very beautiful scenery~ Some foresty area and a v cool bird's eye view of the whole area. V nice! But I think she's kind of used to it le, so it was not much surprise to her. I tried taking a picture from there, but it was way too bright, I couldn't even look into the camera lens at all. Ouch!

But that was some time after I settled down. When I first entered the house, there's abit of awkwardness... I think her father didn't expect me to be there ba... hahax...

And the first feeling was...

WHOA~~~ SO COSY~~~

Really la! The atmosphere is v good! Very quiet (haha,shuting must be laughing now), very comfortable to be in and itx very homely... it's very very very NICE!!!

Hahax, and I discovered some similarities both our parents have in common... The way they talk to each other etc... So familiar lo!

That is not all. I can actually study there la! I mean actually it was supposed to be some act guai strategy, but I ended up studying when I would normally end up singing karaoke at the friend's house which I was visiting. Eeyer!!! I like her house!!!

Including the rocher which left its mark as a pimple( saw it when I looked into the mirror this morning)...

Everything was so nice... and shuting showed me her ZEN micro which was kind of lag... And I discovered a Jap song which I like very much ::wink wink::

We just sat around slacking and slacked and slacked some more....

But I felt really happy doing nothing! Especially with shuting by my side lo... we chatted about the ZHSS guzheng days and our respective cliques in the sec sch and jc... Then I realised how fast people can change. Not necessary for the better, sometimes... I really think that we should treasure everyone around us before we all regret...

Sigh... This is so depressing...

Then we saw Rebecca when Shuting is walking me to the bus-stop near the MRT station...

I could see the surprise in Shuting's eyes and the happiness in Rebecca's. Rebecca spotted us because of shuting's sec 4 class tee... I was not from their class in sec 4 but we were all from guzheng cca... So...

Time really flies... 1 full year liao. And I was laughing at some Sec4 juniors at the Mac, cuz they are taking the O'lvls mahx...

I am so bad.

But I like the REAL me!!!!

Hahahahahahahaha~

5:04 AM



I am such a lagger.

Hmm, already one week after my OP le, then I start to blog about it today. But it doesn't matter anyway. ::Cough:: I just got the worst dream I had for the month last night.

Last night was WHOA. Cuz I experienced the most ming fu qi shi de "shang tu xia xie"... I was vomiting like siao one moment then having diarrehoea like siao the next. The toilet bowl would think I am so in love with it. I think itx something to do with the plate of shao rou rice I ate for dinner... too oily and my pathetic stomach couldn't tahan. Will not buy from that stupid stall ever again. Wu ru my favourite shao rou fan...

Hahax... Normally I toked v loudly le, so u can imagine the noise i created when I was vomiting?? GROSS!!!
Then Mum woke up, Sis too ( she was not asleep yet),then finally my blur blur Dad. I think he's used to her daughter vomiting late at night ba, since my digestive system is not very good since young.

Hahax, then Mum was very funny. I didn't lock the toilet's door in fear that I might faint halfway inside ( I was feeling very very weak, plus my chest was very very pain, plus it was 1-smthg liao and I was very sleepy) and Mum was like waiting outside the toilet, opening and closing the door lo. She was asking whether i need medication oil ( please, itx all the fault of OIL) or tissue paper or water to drink, and whether I am feeling feverish( I said no, although really got abit la, but what if she really barge into the toilet??)... Feel quite happy though, knowing that Mum is so good to me lo...

Then I drifted into dreamland after I finally finished with my shang tu xia xie (with some disturbances throughout cuz my parents were coming into my room to either help me pull up my blanket or to do smthg to the fan) and had a v bad dream.

I dreamt about the release of the PW results and I dunno why, I got to know the results for my OP. Itx 12 marks only la! Upon 100! V V V CHAM! Then I still have to wait to see the HOD for counselling etc... Sorry, I dun really feel very friendly towards the one who would me counselling me, so I ran and ran and ran like siao, and I ended up back in school again!!! What a world, what a world~

I am such a lagger, dreaming about PW only after 1 week it ended.

Sigh.

Sianx~

1:43 AM



Very well.

3 more hours to go before the actual OP!!!

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha~~~~~~~~

Time for the final showdown! Then PW is out of my life! Forever! I really hope all these can go on smoothly and let me get into a good uni with a good grade. Sorry, but I still think that the use of the PW is just to win an admission to the uni. No matter the fun and laughter and the I&R I did. I think forcing people to learn something, especially forcing people to achieve "enlightenment" through projects is a cruel and useless and inefficient way of teaching. I think it really should be up to the student himself to think, and not for someone to point the exact way for him to mature and to grow up in a specific model. Despite the fact that the project is supposed to encourage flexiblity in the thinnking processes of the students, their spoonfeeding and the showing of "the way" by telling us to write the PI first, then the GPP, then the WR and then start on the OP and finally, the stupidest of all--- I&R are Yucks!!! It is like having the thinking processes all CONTROLLED... in a rigid manner...

OK, Caiping wants to tie her hair for her now... So, I'm going out of the com lab for a moment hor.

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Ok, m back from the toilet... the fan in the toilet was blowing away that my hair kept flying all over and I have to go switch off the main switch controlling both the lights and the fan in order to tie my hair and caiping's in peace (and darkness). But ganchiong gals who are about to go for OP were rushing in to the toilet like siao and thus our hair also flew like siao.

Very tiring job juz by tying hair up. Should cut it off someday. Especially after OP. Go cut hair with sis.

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am very scared lei...

God knows if I'll faint and roll on the floor vomiting later. Tu bai mo...

Let me destress.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Tian ah.

1:03 AM



Lalala...

LalalalalalaLAAAAAAAAAAA~~~

PIANG!!!

Ok. Think it's really not a good idea afterall to sing out my thoughts... Creating the demand and supply business opportunities to many glass manufacturers out there.

Well, whatever.

Went through a tormenting experience today. Well, the class should know. But Aquarians won't mind going through this kind of experience de. Especially me.

Yeah! Stronger Class! Stronger Class!

Who am I kidding??

This action is so FEI.

Went to J8 for lunch just now, had a v full bowl of 'you mian' ( thin noodles...hahax) and tried not to burp after finishing the whole meal. Anyway, I succeeded! I mean the no-burping part. And I ended up with stomachache. EWW!!! The air went down instead of up!

Ok. This is the really disgusting me when I am under alot of pressure.

OP is just 2 days awaaaaayyyyy~~~~

My mind is in a total mess.

And I am v scared that the teacher in charge of the com lab will start screaming at me since I am not really doing my work here. Yup, in the com lab again!!! And when I was here this morning (b4 going to J8 for lunch and returning with a nearly no-value ez-link card) and was taking the lift, I kind of lost control of the lift's open-close buttons and pressed on the wrong button when he (the com lab teacher) was attempting to come into the lift... And. Erm... Ya. Then I am feeling abit guilty lo.

Very tired sia. Especially after the lunch and doing work while refraining from burping.

The weather here is very suitable for napping. Especially when there are not many people here using the coms. Quiet and cool.

Yawn~

I am starting to like this place...

ZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.................

Wait. I still have the I&R to finish by Monday.

Very well, very well. Why don't the adults just stop beating around the bush? If they want us dead, just say it!

I am so stressed up. But surely, our chairwoman is even more stressed. Her CCA and everything are driving her mad. And with this, SHE is driving US mad. I really wonder... Whiteil is so right about project work.

It is getting cold in here. Now I know why I always end up hating this place eventually. Just when I thoght the temperature is just right, the air-con will get so proud of itself that it starts to blow full-blast, thinking that it will impress me even further. But you are so wrong, Mr Air-con.

The Changi-airport guy is trying to test my patience.

As quoted from my beloved 'The Illustrated Book of Tarot': "the Queen of swords is idealistic and shys away from possessive or over-emotional types. She is a firm believer in sexual equality, and likes to talk about problems."

I am the Queen of swords!!!

And I hate those who can get OVER-EMOTIONAL just because of small matters that normal human beings won't want to talk about. E.g.s of normal human beings are the cutest Sihui and the prettiest Xiaoying. They can get emotional but not TOO EMOTIONAL.

And I hate the attitude of some people who think that OVER-EMOTIONAL is okay AND that since salt's market price is so cheap, they don't mind rubbing them into other people's wounds by not wanting to shut up when people are trying v hard to avoid that topic.

To the Changi-airport guy: REMEMBER... Sensitivity matters... You are falling into your old mistake again. Stop making the same mistake over and over again...And huting people again and again...

It's for your own good.

I am just pissed off for a while.

Ok. I am like that de.... Hope you people out there don't mind my acidity hor.

Dilute Sulphuric Acid, I love you.

8:34 AM



I reached out my hand
And threw down a rope

But you still fell

Was it because
I am too late

Or

That I am too dumb
To help

I regained my balance
But I couldn't save you in time

The survivor guilt
The flowing pain
The tears that ran through
The endless night again

We sat by the waters
Below the brave merlion
And listened to the rain
That poured in our hearts
Over the heart that's slain

But when there's death
There'll be revival
And there are things that
Will never die

The spirit to strive
The friendship that binds
And the songs that we sang
Will stay in my mind

Then I felt a tug on the rope
That I am still hanging on
I peered down the cliff
And saw you
Just as fine

When the rope comes to an end
Tie a knot and hang on
Then climb up all the same
We will be there

We will be there

7:52 AM