I am like constantly balancing on a flimsy line high up in the sky. Just one wrong move and I'll fall to my death the moment I hit the ground.

I took a fun test a long time ago and had my supernatural power analysed. It's X-ray vision. It doesn't exactly mean that I can see through people's clothes, instead, I can see through people's masks through every detail. It was really fun at first, really. But when things tend to get out of hand, I suffer. For example when I worry over nothing and start to get suspicious over nothing great, I might hurt others or myself without knowing it and it was really tiring. Sometimes I may seem too sensitive, and sometimes I may seem insensitive because I know of my weakness (getting overly suspicious every now and then) and tried to act as if nothing is happening.

I am still trying very hard to please everybody and learn to be a better person. Hmm, seems like there's still a long way to go.

Friends don't need to disguise themselves. But their fellow friends need to be understanding in order for this to be possible. Trust is extremely important. Not just in friendships, but in every kind of human relationship.

I trust in you, that's why I am your friend and you're my friend. I'll always be there for you if you need me. But sometimes I can only be in your heart... without you seeing me and vice-versa. We can't always be together, we are not the siamese twins. We are friends, a group of individuals who are not afraid to support one another in crisis and will not hesitate to share your joy and happiness when you are feeling high and great about your results.

This is my view about friendship. Personal view.

The day before yesterday was Valentine's Day. In other words, it was friendship day. It was a day for me to reflect about how I have been treating my friends all these while... And at the end of the day, I got extremely guilty and somehow a little ashamed of myself. I haven't been able to live up to my friends' expectations and mine as well. I think I have been taking them all for granted... Sigh... I am so sorry...

:(

But tomorrow will be a better day! I will improve myself!

;)

Come on! GO! GO! GO! Heex~

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