I didn't talk much today.

And I think I can continue this for another 21 days before it turns into a habit.

I lost my control over all emotions over the past week. And was kinda drained physically and emotionally.

Started to have bad dreams since Monday night after a strenous day with PE and long classes. Deep sleep. Couldn't even remember what I did last before I go to sleep the previous night and I can even forget the day which I woke up on. Bad memory.

Had an extremely scary nightmare two nights before.

MRT. Rushing home. Running down escalator. Closed gate. Trapped. Concentration camp. Dark atmosphere. Vampires. Threatening smses. Monsters. Genocide. Serene. Huifang. Peishan. Glass cabinet of human brains and chemicals. Magic. Murder. Blood. Escape plans. Uncles and Aunties. Ponder. Confused. Police. Customer. Decision to help friend escape. Adventure. Blood. Handphone. Sms. Snake blood. Showed sms to friend whom I was helping. Cold shoulder. Yanxing. Hurt. Embarrassed. Anger. "I helped you and yet this is how you treat me?!!!". " I didn't ask you to help. You brought this upon yourself. Stop acting as if you know everything." Snake blood. Snake blood. Damnation. Snake blood... Gave up on friends. Door. Escape. Caught. Thinking of 2nd try. JC clique. Disappointment. Hate. Bllod. Snake blood. Lost trust. Being laughed at. Gave up. Abandoned them. 2nd try to escape. Audience. Observation. Door. Speed. Screams. Escaped. Way home.

Still very shaken by the dream.

Another evidence that I am losing control of my emotions again.

So I think I should just shut up in school.

I am very tired. I think I am giving up.

Sorry if you ppl dun understand what I am writing. I dun feel lyk elaborating anyway.
Bad week.

People frm diff worlds cannot cum tgth.
Can't.
Shan't.


I hate misunderstandings.
I am sick of them.
Like how they are sick of me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

I AM ME!!! DON'T BOTHER TALKING TO ME IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! GO TO ALL YOUR OLD LOYAL FRIENDS! END OF FRIENDSHIP BETWEEN US!!! SHOULDN"T HAF MET U AS A FRIEND AT ALL!!!! YES I AM VERY EXREME! I AM VERY BITCHY! I ALWAYS ACT AS IF I KNOW EVERYTHING! I AM VERY PROUD! I AM VERY SICKENING! I CAN'T GET ALONG WELL WITH ALL YOUR FRIENDS!!! I SHOULD JUZ DISAPPEAR!

That's the real me. If only you all can see the effort I had put in to chain up this montrous side of me and present myself as a happy-go-lucky person who just wun care about her image.
From now on, I am back to MYSELF.

Since no one knows how to appreciate. Since I am always the one praising myself (in a joking manner to hide my true feelings). I am on my own.

Forget about all the apologies I once gave you all. They are all invalid.

Next week you will see the real me behind the newly chosen mask.
Yes. The selfish one. And without all attempts to please you ppl.

Definition in my dictionary: No expression on face = expression.
Had you all cheated. Muahahahaha.

I am a born liar.

3:51 PM